i am lost

i really hate my current life ,

recently

i got the feeling of depress , often .

my mind was stucked ,

i can't think and decide wisely ,

anything happen ,

my mind will automatically leads me to the negative way ,

this make me suffer ,

i feel alone all the time ,

i feel extremely dissapointed all the time ,

dissapointed with everything surrounding me ,

feel like there are no hope for me ,

i hate to talk out ,

hate to mix with others ,

the main problem now is,

i don't know how to talk and communicate with others,

and my situation get worse with the tention come from my studies ,

i am not able to stand for these anymore ,

my brain going to burst ,

my body is now without any soul ,

i am afraid i will do something wreakless ,

everything just like out of control .

i feel like im going to get 忧郁症 soon.

dear GOD , can you lead me to the right way ?

i am lost .