11/10/2010 'lucky day' !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have to write this out 

if not i sure cant fall asleep tonight

what a day

sincerely

i am not 'perasan'

i always wish i am a happy go lucky girl

yeah , if not mistaken 

my dear fren eewen mentioned about i am the happy go lucky type of girl

yeah i like to act funny all the time, 

to keep everybody including me and my friends surrounding me feel happy all the time ,

unfortunately the lucks will never belongs to me 

why ?

okay fine

we couldn't blame anyone

sometimes ,lucks just like random atom surrounding the air

okay fine

that's all right 

but i really fed up 

shall i blame anyone?

no

this is my fate

among my friends 

i am always the one 'pro' to deal with such things :

summons

accidents

lost

been scold by supervisor just because i am the 1st to present my proposal

p/s : i will never forget how Dr Amir embarrassed me infront of all the GAs and post doctor

why i have so many feelings about lucks 

cause i am too perasan ?

well

today what actually happen was

my school TRAFIK guards blocked my way , and summoned me

RM50 

NO DISCOUNT 

i shall not travel to that FUCKING 'trafik guards popular' ZONE = SK

i saw the blocking and i cant escape since the FUCKING idiont WAJA blocked my single way 

the trafik guards asked whether i am student

as usual i will i say 'hantar kawan' since i really fetching 2 of my friends

he wanted to see my driving licence , i can't refuse to do that

i have him , he say out loud ,

'you comfirm bukan student ?!!'

"tak mengaku?'

'jika kami pergi check , kamu pelajar, '

'kamu akan dikenakan tindakan tatatertib dan digantung sekolah !'

the FUCKING big size and shaded trafik guards really scared me and my friends

hence i have no choice i have to admit 

and hence they summoned me

from RM30 become RM50

FUCK YOU 

you thought we student very rich ?

you not allow me to drive into campus ?

how about i did that same on you ?

the FUCKING idiot guards never listen to our explainations

they just know how to bully us students

and to be abit racist

they always treat Malay better

i saw they let go the malay girls from being summoned

FUCK YOU 

only those uneducated DOGS will have that kind of action

okay 

FUCK is enough for today

i totally cannot concentrate on my studies and lab works today

feeling so hurt when thinking the RM50 to be given to the FUCKING USELESS and UNCONTRIBUTABLE TRAFIK

i rather spend this to treat the dogs for luxuries dog's meal

i am sorry 

too rude already 

this is the way i express my anger

and specially thank to Shih Chi

you know ?

when after the class , i felt so down

suddenly

you come near me and you hang my hand with your hand together while walking

i felt so warm 

and thanks for keep consoled me at that time

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actually something happy happens to me too for today 

very very surprise thing 

very very unexpected thing

that can makes me smile since the whole morning i can't even laugh or smile out

my kakak that assingned by doctor to guide me

she's back at last !!!

long awaited kak munirah is back !!!!

and she sit beside me while i am streaking plates 

streak plate took about 3-4minutes

she just sit there and i felt weird why got somebody sit there watching me 

but i dindt turn my head since everything have to be very sterile and aseptic

when i finished 

i turn my head 

'hie Li Wee.....'

a very sweet and soft voice from kak

i opened my mouth about 5cm diameter

and no words come out from my mouth 

suddenly don't know how to call her

stucked there for 5seconds

then i great her ' AHHHH ! KAK!!!! you are back !!!"

and she smile to me and say "yes..... ^^"

we chit chat about the lab works and progress of me

and i just realised she's not sick for whole month that i thought

she was pregnant !!!

sooo happy to hear that 

congratulations !!!

well , my day should end with this feeling

feel high and happy 

stop rewind to the black site of the day

stop 

stop

stop

don't think !!!

keep this mood and sleep well alice !!!!

wish me all going well tomorow

i want to be a lucky girl !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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